Texting is the root of all evils…
He started it… but he got caught… it figures.
{sigh}
I have not felt like this since I was 16… alone, heart broken, scared for you, so horrible. I should have seen that they were waiting for that perfect moment to find the proof…
god…. i will never, can never, get you out of my head.
I imagine with time …. but something happened to me and I cannot bear my days nor my nights now, without you.
I am trying to fill the gaps with happy things, but these are few and far between. Days in the dungeon, nights alone… no drive nor motivation for being in places where I could reach out to you.
I did not foresee this, nor could I expect to miss something so much that I never ever had to begin with….
I feel so stupid, so horrible, I honestly could just crawl up and never need to see the light of day again.
I find myself wondering what you are doing, how you are coping, wanting to be there for you, needing to be there for you, hoping that someday, I will be able to peel back the layers that somehow you broke through again. I don’t see it happening. I opened up my soul to you… I can’t imagine taking that risk again.
My mountain man… if there were a more perfect man for me, i will not know it. Good bye mountain man
Maybe in the next life I will find you again.
