If there were a quick way to break through this depression, I would love to know it. I feel hollow, sleezy, stupid, achy, sad… but I can’t seem to cry anymore.
I want to know how he is faring… how bad it is for him, to share in that pain too. I stare at my phone, hoping maybe…. but nothing. I want him to know, if he should call, I will answer.
I hope something good comes of this … I couldn’t see the purpose of us meeting in the first place, how it had hit me like a ton of bricks, and how easy it was. There is a reason for everything… just wish I knew what it was.
[may be I should be taking some kind of little pill to ease this]
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